A great man is one who leaves others at a loss after he is gone.
dont hurt somebody because you’re unsure about your feelings
You’re the same one who keeps me afloat and also the one responsible for throwing me in the water. Why have I still been holding on.. for so long? When I know you can let go anytime you want. Yet I’m latched on like a hook. But now I’m sinking like an anchor, nauticals at a time. I’m headed towards rock bottom and there is no light once you hit the floor. Life still exists, but it’s very minimal. And it’s cold. And there’s so much pressure pressing down on you. Never knowing if you’ll ever breach back to the surface again. You might ask yourself what kinds of creatures live this life of darkness. But believe me, there’s plenty of us around. I’m sick and tired of having you fill my lungs with water for every time you lash out on me or strike me down with your words; I’m just as flawed as you are. We’re not different. I used to sail the seas with a smile on my face for numerous reasons. I would be lucky enough if someone found me like how you did. But I don’t want the hand or attention of another. I only crave and yearn for your warmth and your exact and unique touch. The sailors back then and of today are no different. Still using their gut feelings as compasses and praying and using the stars as navigation. But now we’re on two different boats heading in opposite directions. Still hoping one day I’d find my way back to you, once more, and once again. Because once I found you I never needed to travel anywhere else. I had my whole world and life next to me right by my side. And it’s a shame, a tragedy, to know that we look up at the same stars but see such different things.
I gave you things I wasn’t sure I even had. I did things for you that I didn’t know were possible. And just like a magician, I made miracles out of nothing. I too, was surprised, of how well things turned out. Even I was deceived about my perspective of you. You had me fooled. Wishing that you were apart of this whole show; apart of all my acts. Yet you were just another face in the crowd who was watching. In hopes of one day that you would realize it isn’t about the fancy tricks, deceiving others, or putting up a facade. But about believing things we cannot explain, and understanding they too can be Real…
Sometimes questions will not always lead to answers, but only more questions. And some things are better left unsaid…
I’m not the healthiest person to be honest. I eat fatty foods etc. My philosophy is just that I want to eat whatever I want, but I have to workout 10x’s harder. Why sacrifice all that bomb food out there? Why not just push yourself harder.. But lately I’ve even maintaining and managing what I eat. I only drink water. I wear a stomach slimmer belt. Which helps a lot.
Btw I don’t go to the gym. I do home workouts etc. Once the season gets warmer I’m going to swim in my backyard. I haven’t had Any time to do any cardio. I work 6 or 7 days a week. But if I did go to the gym and had more free time I’m sure I would have been where I want to be. I’ll get there though.