$50 per person all you can eat? Better believe ima take advantage of the dessert. (at Bacchanal Buffet)
With just a few words exchanged,
my whole persona was altered.
My attitude dropped like an anchor,
but I was no sailor…
Just lost in this sea of anguish.
I was so anxious.. to why I felt this way.
As if my chest collapsed and my lungs began to concave,
with a touch of heart failure and a stroke of pain.
It left me feeling empty..
Like my body was hollow,
and all the contents inside were missing.
Not everything that is said has to matter,
but it sure does hit home when you cannot describe how or why.
And you just wanna lie… in bed.
but not with all these thoughts in your head.
When you hear a certain phrase.. or set of words.
to the point where it triggers that feeling,
especially when they say no.
I just don’t know.. why.
Although I just want to go, and get away.
I don’t like this, not one bit.
I must shelter certain aspects.
because even a few words,
can leave me ruined.
It’s three in the morning, and I’m just worn down; to the bone. I have priorities which need to be met and responsibilities to uphold, but there doesn’t seem to be enough time. Enough time to accomplish each task…there’s just so much weight on these shoulders and so much stress running through these veins. I need a break from it all. It might be about time I leave this city and the people in it. It’s overwhelming and I cant even focus on myself anymore. Cant even give myself the day of time to even breathe without hesitation. I should honestly disappear for good while. It doesn’t matter if things are still not solved. I just need time for myself and to get away from all the encompassing stress which continues to grow. Maybe one day…
On some nights…
I wake up long before the sunrise.
I can hear the wind chimes.
And I look up at the ceiling
with all these, I miss you feelings
I’m unstable like a house made of cards
because I don’t know what I’m dealing… with.
On some nights…
I just miss you way too much.
The best part is knowing that I’ll wake up to the same sweet girl who fell asleep in my arms. As the only thing that has changed is the distance between one another. And as our bodies are entangled, I dare not try to undo them. For they are intertwined and crossed better than the aligned stars. Nothing more beautiful can be produced in such a mess. With our bodies colliding, I’m headed straight towards you, and I do not bother to change directions; of my attention.