January 2012
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It was inevitable. The way your sweet-tempered hands grasped my aching body. How I was such a nervous wreck although you would put my mind at ease. And I couldn’t help but fall. You had that gravitational pull which attracted me in more ways than one. I felt like you were living in a different universe, and I had no choice but to watch you in awe. These dark months have been adding up and...
It’s okay to leave. You cant always hold on forever because some things are beyond our control. But if you’re going to walk away, make sure it’s for the right reasons. If you have any intentions on leaving then be my guest. I wouldn’t want you to stay for my sake when your mind’s telling you not to be here. Don’t give up or quit because something went wrong....
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“The Gods envy us. They envy us because we’re mortal, because any moment might be our last. Everything is more beautiful because we’re doomed. You will never be lovelier than you are now. We will never be here again.”
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Stick With You | Pussy Cat Dolls
There are times where you wont be able to find the right words. You’ll be left speechless while your thoughts run wild and your mouth stays shut. But that’s okay because not everything will make sense to you. And that’s the beauty of wonders. Sometimes you just have to sit there and enjoy what’s in front of you. These moments wont last long and the only thing you can do is...
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She was like a traffic accident and everybody was slowing down to look at her. The type of misfortune that changes a person. Everyone turned their heads as if she had the whole world’s eyes beaming in her direction. But the most beautiful people that walked this planet were the one’s who were damaged and hurt. For they solemnly knew what it was like to be broken down to the smallest of...
I used to have a crush on this girl from 2nd grade till 7th. And when I moved I finally told her how I felt. Everybody knew we liked each other although we were both shy. Over the years I tried talking to her. Her shyness was cute and the way she’d laugh at my dorky self. But it never really hit me how much it hurts until that day I unleashed what I felt for her. You finally get to open up...
My Baby | Kanye West ft. Janet Jackson
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Today I came home to only find out that my beloved dog had passed away. At first I didn’t know how to react. My mind was in a state of shock as I didn’t want to accept the fact that she was gone. A few hours went by and my mood had definitely shifted. How do you cope with watching something grow up right before your eyes who had now left the Earth. Something that was so close and dear...
All I really wanted was just a moment to myself. Nothing more, nothing less. Just some time to be able to solidify what’s been going on in my life. As much as I wanted to be involved in others lives, I honestly needed to focus on myself. I needed to find resolve from within and be at ease with my surroundings. And as time passes by, you slowly begin to realize that the first true step...
It’s nights like these where I think more than I should. My head is weighed down with all these ongoing thoughts. The type of nights where it puts you in one of those indescribable moods. And you don’t really know if you’re okay or not.
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Very few people understand my humor.
I’m really considering moving to Hawaii this year possibly. The island of Oahu to be more exact because my sister has a house there. You live in a place too long and you start to get tired of your surroundings. I just wanna experience something different.
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I wanted to get away, for my life was such a tragic mess. Maybe I needed to go with the flow like I was aloft at sea. If I had the power I would grant an embargo on all these wretched memories as they weighed my head down. I wanted to export all this discomfort and distress and channel it out to the ocean waters. Where they would drift along current of the waves. Over time these feelings would be...
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One day I’m going to write a book or two and incorporate all my posts within it. Or something along those lines. And in that book will hold my life’s adventure, experience, and emotions. My words will be honest, especially to self. And I’ll let the pen run dry as my words convey another side that very few actually get to see.
Late night thoughts. Might as well open up a bottle.
Some day you’re going to realize and it’ll be too late. You’ll see it through my eyes. And I wont even be there. I’ll be happy somewhere else. I wont even miss you.
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Slow Motion | Karina Pasian
For what did it matter? We are all going to end up in the same place. No matter how hard we try we wouldn’t be able to bring anything with us once we’re gone. It’s kind of funny how we work so hard for the things we want yet nothing is entirely permanent. What we call ours is only temporary and will eventually be in the hands of someone else. To think that you truly own something...
Just take me home. There’s nothing like being in the comforts of your own bed. To be able to walk around without being all dressed up. And not having to deal with all those annoying people outside of your life. Especially being able to collapse after a long hard day. It’s the luxury of having a place to call yours and living in it. There’s something about home that will always...
December 2011
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There will always be a fine line of what a person will be willing to share with you. Whether it’s problems or just random experiences. Once they stop telling you or leave you hanging that’s when the curiosity arises. Now it’s only up to you to decide if you want to cross that barrier to find out more. This is the part where people get carried away. The moment you start to learn...
I could still feel the warmth of your touch. The haunting echoes of your laugh and that smile which made the darkest of nights brighter. I loved how those words rolled off your tongue and sailed off those lips. How your voice would have a certain ring to my ears like I was listening to a melody. I was convinced that I needed a map because I was always lost in your almond eyes as if they were...
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If our appearance was based on our personality. How many of you would still call each other cute?
Do I ever cross your mind? Whether it’s unintentional or just out of curiosity. Maybe not often but every now and then you just happen to remember me. I wish I could go back in time and freeze a certain moment. The part of your life where I actually mattered to you. Where I still existed and I wasn’t just a fading memory of how things used to be. It’d be nice to know that every...
You used to be there for me. Although I don’t know what happened. One day you disappeared out of thin air. Kind of like those magic tricks where you went poof and out of my life. And now you were gone while I was left behind helpless. As if something had gone terribly wrong and the magician couldn’t undo what has already been done. Now you were nowhere to be found even when I needed...
As we grow older it’s never about the presents, but having someone special to spend it with.
It’s been a while since I’ve had an honest smile, a real laugh or a simple conversation. I’ve been living off these temporary moments of bliss. Maybe I’ve been in the wrong crowd or mistaken joy for all this distress. I just want to be genuinely happy for once. Nothing complex but being able to enjoy the simple things in life.
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A hundred faces and a thousand places.
I still haven’t met anyone like you.
Fancy planes and a million names.
But no one stands out like you.
Dozens of letters and countless you could do betters.
In the end I chose you.
Plenty of fish in the sea although they weren’t for me.
And after all this time, I still haven’t found anyone like you.
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Words have a funny way of being understood and exchanged. Not everyone will be on the same page. There’s so much more to the equation than what’s really being said. You add a little feelings and emotions and it can really be damaging. As for the exact opposite it can have a totally different affect on the way someone feels. Unfortunately, more than just words begin to clash which can...
It’s not that I cant sleep, but these late night thoughts that keep me up.
Suga Suga | Baby Bash
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I was gradually growing cold. Becoming numb to what’s been keeping me warm for so long. The fire which has kept me strong has now died down. Small fiery embers waiting to be extinguished as the ashes scattered throughout the thin air. Third degree burns of internal infliction was now clearly visible. And you could see it in my heavy eyes as if they told you how I truly felt. My tone of voice...
Become better, not bitter.
Life becomes much sweeter when you can look on the brighter side of things. Unfortunately some of us have to learn it the hard way. There are times where we tend to think it’s too late, and nothing can possibly fix the situation we’re in. From our deep dark thoughts to our uncanny behavior and attitude. Despite how you feel it’s best to overcome this condition and make use of it....
That’s the problem with me. I’m tired of always explaining myself when ever someone asks what’s wrong. I don’t always want to answer the same questions or explain the same story all over again. It comes to the point where I just tell them it’s nothing. And nothing is exactly how I feel because I’m just mentally caught in this mess where I don’t know...
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Say something wrong to me and surely enough I wont be talking to you.
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I was dedicated, heavily infatuated. And one might say deeply intoxicated. Drunk and needed to be medicated. For the love grew strong and I hesitated. Everything we talked about became related. New memories were constantly being created. After talking for some time we finally dated. Locks of love like it was braided. You knew all my secrets and the truth was naked. But over time our relationship...
I get fed up when people always talk down about themselves. Always having something to say to seem like they had it worse. And they try to one-up you by always saying one thing after another. This isn’t a damn contest of who’s had it worse, it really isn’t. My life is completely different from yours. Please don’t try to compare or feel the need to seem like what I’m...
I’m tired of sitting, waiting, wishing when I could be doing. Every now and then I think about all the things in my life. From important subjects of matter to random shit currently taking place. And over the years I’ve learned there isn’t any better way to make things happen than to do it yourself. Don’t always wait for things to fall in place. You gotta make your own...
One Thing (Remix) | Amerie X Nujabes
If you’re going to ask something from me at least say fucking please and thank you. You don’t know how much that irritates me. You mild mannered assholes.
So many girls on here especially, that act so “sweet” to each other. Spitting out compliments left and right. Saying they’d date each other and calling each other names etc. Not saying there’s anything wrong with that, but it’s just like… Half of them are about 14 or not much older than that. Since it’s just the internet you can never really tell whether...
I want to go to 6 Flags and ride all the roller coasters. I want to eat funnel cake sundae topped with ice cream. That’s the only thing that could possibly make me happy right now. Emotional roller coasters aren’t fun anymore, they never were.
November 2011
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Whether it was the color of your hair or the outfit you were wearing. How you would walk with such grace and how you would speak with such ease. Every time you smiled it’s like the Earth would dim it’s lights just to have you shining at every moment. And the way you would laugh would even make The Grinch reconsider stealing Christmas. The type of girl who wasn’t perfect, but...
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Now I’m sitting here,
constantly thinking about you.
To the point where I start to really miss you.
But my mind is fucked up.
I cant even begin to describe the lines you say
to make me want to go back,
back in time.