I need to find my way out of this labyrinth.
Sometimes there are no words, just feelings.. because even words too can fail us. Words cannot fix what actions broke. And silence becomes the language in which we become all too familiar with. It speaks volumes, in ways that unsaid words start to kill us. We go about our days not talking to each other and it kills me. Yet we fight like gladiators when we talk until no one is left standing, waiting, on the other end of the line. And I’m starting to believe that this life isn’t for me.
That isn’t always true… Sometimes we can’t save ourselves anon. We can do everything right and be spot on, but still feel empty and lost inside. The only time things don’t make sense is when we have not reached that level of understanding. That’s why people wonder such things to why people do this or that.. I respect others thoughts and views. But just because it may seem unmoral, inhumane, wrong, evil etc. Others see it differently. Some people mistake others peoples happiness for anger or madness. You can’t tell me I’m wrong or right. You can only choose to respect my views or not. In a world of grey this is where the black and white meet..
Why am I the one getting burned when I’m the one who’s trying to save the flame and make it last? Has your patience turned to ash? Has your views changed because I burn differently than others? Is it because my ways are unorthodox? Just let me know and work with me. I just want your full effort every time and in every way, but I don’t feel it. I’m tired of setting myself on fire for someone’s who’s only going to watch me burn.. And you’re the only one who can save me, but the same reason why I’m up in flames.
when nobody else called you.
|—||Y.Z, A ten word story on being a second choice (via xoxo-hallojmo)|
I love you too. You drive me crazy, but without you my life would be boring :*